When it all falls apart.

My friend tried to take his own life the other night.
He took multiple packets of nurofen plus.
It kind of sucked. Well, it did suck.

He's doing slightly better now though.

He has a child with his girlfriend, a two and a half year old little girl named Lavinia. He was living with his girlfriend, and daughter. She threw him out of the house with little to no explanation as to why they were breaking up and refused to let him see Lavinia. Over the next few days he lost his job, and consequently got thrown out of his parents house where he had moved after his girlfriend broke up with him.

I guess it just all got too much. He regrets it now and understands that it was incredibly selfish. He even apologised to his friends. I'm not 100% sure that it was entirely necessary to apologise though. I know that it was hard for everyone involved and that a few people got angry about it but an apology makes it... I'm not even really sure. I don't know how to phrase it. But it's not something anyone was expecting or even something that people even knew exactly how to respond to it.

I was really angry at the start. It was selfish. My thoughts on this are sprawled through out this blog already, I don't think I need to go over it again. But now I'm just sad, not sad for myself but for him. There is nothing I can do either. What made it so much more worse was that his girlfriend posted all the gory details over FACEBOOK. NOW WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU PUT SOMEONE WHO IT QUITE LITERALLY SUICIDAL THROUGH SO MUCH PUBLIC HUMILIATION. I wanted to drive to her house and fucking murderrrr her.

That is all for now, it's quite depressing going through this from beginning to end again.