Motivation.

I really hate it when my motivation levels go down to nothing. I'm trying to save because I'm supposed to be going overseas so therefore when the opportunity arises I work extra days however this leaves me incredibly exhausted. It makes it extra hard to keep going to work because of how tired I am and especially stay the whole day because I get so over it I cannot stand to be there.

Serious part over.

Rant begins, mostly about the almost mother in law from hell.
I'm now no longer allowed in their house because I am a distraction from significant others debts... apparently. Now only that, he is not allowed at my house either because that also constitutes a distraction.

I don't know whether I should just stop caring or not. Is it really worth it? I care and he ignores me... His mother doesn't care about him and he chases her attention. I know that psychologically that makes sense but it doesn't mean I have to agree? The more someone doesn't like you the more you want them to like you, I guess. Believe you me I know what it's like to feel unloved, but I got angry, not attention seeking. Maybe what he's doing is healthier than what I did. Then again, neither of us chose to react the way we did, it's just what happened. It was hardly a thought process.

...and so begins the secret relationship. God help me.