Ignoring all prior advice and forewarning.

So many people told me not to, but I did it anyway.
It wasn't a selfish act, in fact, it's probably a selfless act.
What he did was a selfish act.

You sat there and you told me you loved me. You told me to come over.
You went home, and you killed yourself.

Now there was no "I" in any of those sentences, so why do I feel guilty?

You were the one that lied to me. You put this on me. It may not have been your intention but it was the result nonetheless.
I don't want to feel guilty, but I did. Now I don't. I did for a very very long time, but not anymore. What you did was selfish. I went to your house and you knew I was coming, but you still let me see what I saw. You knew it would be me. For that I hate you, and I feel guilty now not for your death but for the feelings I associate with you. Your name carries such a negative connotation in my mind that I'm too ashamed to tell anyone.

I've realised that this will most likely keep replaying over and over in my mind until I actually tell someone about it. But since I'm not yet brave enough to do so I'm going to post everything running through my mind here instead.

Baby steps is the key.

One of my friends is currently struggling with a second break up with the same girl. It makes me want to scream in his face something along the lines of GET SOME REAL PROBLEMS but something stops me. Maybe because life teaches you better than anyone in your life will be able to, therefore we all learn different things and alas one cannot judge anothers reaction unless you have walked a mile in their shoes.
What frustrates me the most is that they broke up because he was being too clingy and just generally overly paranoid about every little thing. Constantly calling her to see where she was and who she was with, that sort of stuff.
Eventually, she forgave him, he promised he would change, the usual sort of reconciliation one would go through in a situation such as that.
However, after a few weeks everything was slowly sliding very quickly back to the way it was. Alarm bells started ringing in said girls head and she contemplated ending the relationship. At this point in time said boy was being warned not only by his friends but said girl that if things continued, it would end.
So, he ignored everyone in his life and continued acting the way he was and BAM, relationship over. Now one would generally be empathetic in a situation like this as most people would know how horrible it is to be broken up with. But feel empathy for someone who dug his own grave? Lie in it?

That's probably as selfish as it gets. He didn't learn the first time, however he had help this time, and experience which is probably the most valuable thing one can be given in a situation like this. He was offered so much advice, surely something inside him was just SCREAMING at max volume that something was wrong. Maybe not, I guess I don't know for sure this is all just a theory.